A crush or deep connection?

There is this boy. Let's call him Kia. I consider Kia to be one of my friends. Everyone at school says I like Kia and should ask him out. For the longest time ever I have wanted a boy bestfriend. I don't know why but the thought of it always has stayed in my head. I'm not sure wether or not I have a crush on him or it is simply that I want him to become my bestie. I have thought about asking him for his number and if he wanted to hangout but to him I'm just another person in the school. 

What do you guys think?

Have a great day

                                - Emily xx

Coming out...

lots of girls at my school have been coming out as bisexual. This includes the attention seeker and my best friend. Lets call the attention seeker Karen and my best friend Phoebe. So at first Karen came out as bisexual. She had never ever liked a girl let alone dated one. Nobody believes her. Then Phoebe came out as bisexual saying she had a crush on my other best friend lets call her Ember. So Ember knows Phoebe likes her yet they act like Phoebe isn't obsessing over what the could be. I don't know how to handle anything anymore. Any advice?

Have a great day

-Emily xx

True friends

This is something that has been happening to me lately.

My "Best friends" have been calling me fat and ugly and ask why would anyone want to go out with an ugly hoe like me! They think that I take it as a joke but it really hurts. I'm already self-conscious about my weight and acne without them piling on the pressure. I feel alone and that I have nobody to talk to about this. I know that I should tell them the truth about the fact that it hurts me but I don't want to be alone. I have few friends and I try my hardest to stay close to them at all costs. I sometimes don't want to go to school just because I know they will do it all over again. My safe place is my room where I write my blog posts and watch my favourite youtubers. It's like I never want it to end. This magical place I get teleported to when I'm in my room is my safe place away from my friends and family. I want to be and actor and I am aware the chances of that ever happening is very slim but I believe if I try my hardest I might just have a chance. When I tell this to my friends they say things like "Oh your chances of being and actor are so slim you might as well give up now!" And "The only drama you'll ever get to do is in the classroom or the drama between people who hate you!" I genuinely believe that most of it is true now. Another thing that doesn't help is the fact most of my friends  are friends with the person who used to bully me and still does. He makes me feel weak and helpless like the world is against me. Please can you leave your advice. 

Have a great day xxx

Keeping it real

As this is my very first blog post on here I decided to let you into my life. This is a way to let out my feeling and just to let my head breathe. Some of you might know me from my blog story My heart somewhere else. If not and you have never heard of me I'm Emily.

Today was I guess eventful. My awkwardness is still with me and I just cant seem to stop embarrassing myself . I wonder if I hid under my covers and hoped my mum wouldn't drag me out if I could just have the day to myself. Anyway on my blog I'm now going to be telling my audience things like my weekly favourites and my top tips for surviving day to day life (even though some of the tips might be completely idiotic). As well as anything I want to rid my mind of.

Weekly favourites

This week I have been loving Beyonce's  older songs back from 2010 like Halo and Irreplaceable. And I can't forget about ed sheeran's new album Divide.  My current must have perfume is the ted baker body mist in which doesn't have a name. All will be linked down below.  Another thing is new look's matte lipstick in the shade latte. This is my new obsession and is your all for a nude lip I would 100% recommend this but I couldn't find it on their website so I linked the closest one I could find.
Last but not least is zoella's blog. I love her blog so much and is what inspired me to make my own.

http://www.boots.com/ted-baker-pink-mini-body-spray-10195168
http://www.newlook.com/shop/womens/beauty/rose-quartz-matte-lipstick-_392536570
https://www.zoella.co.uk/

Hope you have a great day and don't forget to comment down below xxx

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